I hurt everyday because of you leaving me. There's not one day I don't think about it. I read studies that show guys take a lot longer on average to get over relationships than women. It seems true. You seem to have moved on no problem. But I continue hurting each and every day. My solace is my belief in my absolute blessings, grounded in the mere fact that I was born into a western civilization. This keeps me positive anytime I'm feeling down, a fact I tried to get you to learn on as well, anytime YOU were feeling down.
I meet new women here and there. Some are great. But I already feel like I had something great. You said I wasn't ambitious, I wasn't a leader. You are still dead wrong. More accurate, I believe, was that you put your faith in materialism, and because my goals weren't grounded in those ends, you mistook me as weak in ambition and leadership. You were dead wrong. I was leading... you just weren't following. My ambition is the will of God, and the greater effort put forth in following that will, the less materialistically I may or may not be. If you had followed me, I would have led us strongly towards God. You have left me. Now it may be another woman I lead that way.